I am currently working on a suicide prevention/crisis plan. One of the questions are 'what are your reasons for living', I really have no idea and can't think of any and have said this to my worker.
I wondered what other ASD/AS people's answer would be to this.
If you can, a sentence or two written would be welcome.
I’m sorry that things are so bad for you. Please try to find a reason to live! You are valuable as a person and you deserve to live!
My pervious reply was rather depressing I see.
This post caught my eye in a bad moment.
Other reasons i have to live are dinosaurs\ Birds. Especially Jays as they’re my fave and I look out for them everyday and the days I don’t see them make the days I do see them even better.
I’m also not totally selfish as I seem, I have many time stopped from myself doing anything when the thought of people I leave behind flash through my mind And I hate to think of them having the horror of finding me that way.
because if i did it would hurt the people who loved me.
also if you did your worker would have to go to court and they would ask them what they were doing to prevent this from happening, it could hurt them so much that they may even give up their career which may result in one less person helping people like us. . .
No they wouldn't, I have thought about these things. I have written a really good letter explaining about the support I have had from my health team and that it in no way reflects their lack of support, expertise or otherwise. Sometimes, there really is nothing anyone can do despite expertise from trained professionals in helping people with these difficulties, if that was the case, no one would voluntarily end their life.
you can't guarantee that
Hi. I'm glad you're getting support and I hope the answers in this thread are helpful.
Here are just some of my reasons for living:
1. My family and friends. I want to be there to support them, care for them, and make lots of happy memories with them.
2. Life has a lot to offer, e.g. being out in nature, travelling, having new experiences, eating great food, watching snow fall, spending time with the people I love, spending time with animals (very therapeutic), reading, writing, singing, making and listening to music. The list goes on.
3. No matter what I'm going through, I know it will pass.
4. Living through a tough experience not only makes you stronger, it also makes you better equipped to support and empathise with others. I think people who have hit rock bottom understand how it feels to be there and will do what they can to help others in that position. We also make great listeners.
5. You are special. No matter who you are or what your past is, you're unique, you're important, and I truly believe you're in this world for a reason. Even if I sometimes question what I contribute to the world, I know that even the littlest things I do (like giving someone a kind word, or helping a frog cross the road - which I genuinely did!) can make a positive impact.
Despite the Aspergers Syndrome, anxiety and OCD I actually enjoy my life. I'm in my 20s and feel that I enjoy and treasure every second of this beautiful gift of life we have.
I like the little things in life.
I like hearing birds chirping to one another.
I like seeing the leaves and flowers growing at the start of spring.
I like seeing children play in the park, completely innocent and having the fun that we all enjoyed at that age.
I like listening to records and music, still find it amazing that music can actually make me feel raw emotions depending on what I listen to. My mum was a big fan of Elvis so it was natural I'd get a lot of Elvis records for my birthday.
I like being there for my parents and family, making them happy and being there for them when I can.
Sure I can get down sometimes but I always find a reason, every day to be happy and love myself. Today I saw a beautiful Robin and that really made me smile.
I work with the law and studied it throughout university and actually your letter wouldn't make a difference. In any death, even with a thoughtful written letter from the deceased, everyone is a suspect and will be investigated as to be proven guilty.
I'm sure your support worker is wonderful but no matter what she would still have to stand in court and answer questions and I don't need to tell you that it is not a pleasant experience.
Hang in there sweetie. Things will get better xx
it's quite all right. Those who really know how low it feels to be at rock bottom have something valuable to say to others in that state. I bet you would never tell someone to buck up, pull themselves together or grin and bear it if they felt suicidal.
There are a few reasons I wouldn't want to die. First, I specifically wouldn't want to die at someone else's hands because the idea brings me a strong feeling of disgust and embarassment. I've saw a lot of videos of people being murdered (i.e. by the cartels and ISIS), and it's always bugged me to think that I could be killed by a common thug one day.
In general, I wouldn't want to die because I know that I'd lose consciousness forever, which would mean every thought I've ever had and everything I've ever done to get to those conclusions would now be completely useless. I worry that when I'm gone, the only humans left will be stupid-but-brave, and smart-but-docile, and eventually my species will go extinct (which is definitely worse than death).
I also dread the thought of some stranger handling my body and potentially measuring my penis, and all the weird things people do with dead bodies like cremation (which is stupid because I think that kills off most if not all of my DNA, and all the other parts inside me which are still alive).
I could die a lot more comfortably knowing that I'm going to be eaten by wild animals, or buried whole in the ground, because that way it's not the end of my journey, only the end of whatever is bothering me about this body/life.