Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi all.
I am struggling with everything at the moment. Life is hard, I mean I know it is harder for others but I am finding it increasingly difficult to even function. I yet to lose my job but my boss has given me this week off to clear my head. She knows I have autism and is supportive but I am afraid sooner or later she will fire me. At work I get things wrong and in my job mistakes are unacceptable!
At home there is little improvement. I am full of stress and unable to do the things I normally like to do. My friends try to help me but I am tired all the time and suffering from mood swings and find myself snapping at my family. I am also irritable most days which is unusual for me because usually I am level headed and calm.
I do have a lot on my mind but normally I power through any concerns I have but lately I am unable to control my thoughts and they become worries and then I become stressed. Terrific.
I was hoping after a last year, I made good improvements to my life and autism that two thousand and twenty would be another year of improvements but so far I feel like I am trapped in a car and it is stuck in reverse. *sighs*.
I am hoping that the winds will change soon and I will go forward again and start to make progress and improvements with my life and autism.
How are things with all of you? I hope you are all well and having a nice day at present.
ClaireBear.
Hi Claire
What you describe often happens to me as well.
I think it’s just the mask of having to blend in falling away.
Take the time and have a few pj days. Then start to rebuild again (it’s what I do.) Then for the remainder of your time off, do something you like doing. Slowly increase your activity rate and hopefully, you can view things with a clearer mind.
Magician > Thank you. I am going to take this week off and hope that I start to feel more like my usual self before the weekend.