Published on 12, July, 2020
So I volunteer in a charity shop and have done so since last Autumn. After a lot of asking about studying a qualification with them since they offer NVQs, I found out that I was due to start one later this month or early next month. Don’t get me wrong, I love studying but only if the environment is right and supportive about it.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve found myself being constantly criticised for just about anything. From not printing out gift aid labels on the shop floor (I would normally send those to the next floor, since the office has the means to do it there) to being asked to sort through some boxed donations (which I did alone) and then being told I shouldn’t have been the one to sort them and don’t touch anything again!
I’m really disappointed it’s come to this, since the charity have paid for me to start the NVQ. However, I’m very discouraged and in a bleak place. I’m unemployed and not able to work, struggle with depression and anxiety attacks and can easily become disjointed with living in general. Apart from being at the shop, I only see my parents and my boyfriend since no one else wants to spend time with me. I mean, I’m autistic, so to them I’m a liability.
Is there a way forward for me? Can life be kind and nice for once at least? After this, I generally don’t think so! Should I walk away and give up?
Good afternoon,
I am sorry to hear you are experiencing problems.
Well done for volunteering in a charity shop.
It may be worth seeking additional support such as the NAS website.
Or looking into services that you can benefit from.
Meeting or speaking with someone once a week?
Perhaps arranging a GP appointment?
Give it some thought and time until you make your decision.
Sometimes, it does take and trial and error approach to see what works and what doesn't.
Besides your preferred area of employment.
Have you perhaps considered something like an apprenticeship or supported internship?
Plus, if one career path isn't available or not for you.
It might be worth looking at a 'Plan B' option.
I do hope and believe there is a world where this some kindness.
But, I guess that depends on a few factors.
Have you considered writing your feelings out or listening to relaxation music?
There is only so much you can do.
Try to be kind to yourself (not easy).
But, do what you feel is right and what makes you happy.
The same applies to who or whom you are with.