Hi my Name is Naomi and I was diagnosed with autism a few years ago. I don’t think I have a specialised subject that I know all about I was just wondering if it was just me. Or did anyone else have this too
I have a couple of areas that I'd sort of call special interests which I've had from a young age, though I don't have anything like encyclopedic knowledge of them. I do find that if someone asks me something about them, or indeed anything I'm interested in/ borderline obsessed with, even if it's something like a TV programme, I feel a very pressing need to put across every available piece of information that I think may be relevant or useful.
There is a sort of perfectionism thing too, where I feel like if I'm going to be involved with engaging in a special interest then everything has to be 'just right' which is a cause of a lot of anxiety for me as it's often not possible.
I do have a couple of background interests too which I don't really engage with due to time/ money mainly, but interestingly they are model railways and planes (just looking at them, not flying on them) which I'm aware are sort of stereotypical Autism special interests!
Perfectionism is something I am like and do not like losing control (Told growing up that if you do a job the do it well or leave alone).
I have lots of pet sayings from books I've read, films/TV Programmes I've watched/Band lyrics/Live banter I've heard that really annoy some Neuro Typicals.
There is a lot of car/helicopter/aeroplane knowledge together with Apple/Windows computers and older machines back to the early 80's.
I am self deprecating which annoys some people too.
Also, hobbies/interests have changed over the years as my spare time, education, knowledge, skills and experience changed.
I feel a very great need for perfection and control, I sometimes wish I could be a bit more laid back. I do try but if something's not right/ out of place I have to try to do something about it. Unfortunately this also manifests in me obsessing over things from the past and trying to tidy things up in my mind, something which is sort of impossible and a great cause of anguish.
I often find myself quoting (sometimes out loud but often in my head) things from Green Wing, a comedy that was on a few years ago. I don't know if that counts as a special interest but I've been fairly obsessed with it for a long time, I drive my Mum mad going on about it.
It's funny actually, I thought I just had interests but the more I've thought about it as I've been going through the assessment, I've realised I do get really intensely obsessed with things to a level that's possibly different to how a neurotypical person might. I was asked at the first part of my assessment about hobbies, I said I didn't really have any, as I've never really thought of my interests as 'hobbies', they've always just seemed like totally vital parts of my life rather than things I just pick up for fun. I realised afterwards what they were really asking and that I probably should've mentioned my interests so I submitted a lot of notes to try to explain.
Ruthieroo123 said:I feel a very great need for perfection and control, I sometimes wish I could be a bit more laid back. I do try but if something's not right/ out of place I have to try to do something about it. Unfortunately this also manifests in me obsessing over things from the past and trying to tidy things up in my mind, something which is sort of impossible and a great cause of anguish.
I hate the way my brain makes me process historic events and decisions over and over. If I wake up in the night, it's my brain's default behaviour - so I have to put the tv on to try to distract my own brain.