Hi my Name is Naomi and I was diagnosed with autism a few years ago. I don’t think I have a specialised subject that I know all about I was just wondering if it was just me. Or did anyone else have this too
I have a couple of areas that I'd sort of call special interests which I've had from a young age, though I don't have anything like encyclopedic knowledge of them. I do find that if someone asks me something about them, or indeed anything I'm interested in/ borderline obsessed with, even if it's something like a TV programme, I feel a very pressing need to put across every available piece of information that I think may be relevant or useful.
There is a sort of perfectionism thing too, where I feel like if I'm going to be involved with engaging in a special interest then everything has to be 'just right' which is a cause of a lot of anxiety for me as it's often not possible.
I do have a couple of background interests too which I don't really engage with due to time/ money mainly, but interestingly they are model railways and planes (just looking at them, not flying on them) which I'm aware are sort of stereotypical Autism special interests!
Perfectionism is something I am like and do not like losing control (Told growing up that if you do a job the do it well or leave alone).
I have lots of pet sayings from books I've read, films/TV Programmes I've watched/Band lyrics/Live banter I've heard that really annoy some Neuro Typicals.
There is a lot of car/helicopter/aeroplane knowledge together with Apple/Windows computers and older machines back to the early 80's.
I am self deprecating which annoys some people too.
Also, hobbies/interests have changed over the years as my spare time, education, knowledge, skills and experience changed.
I am a perfectionist too and don't like losing control either.
Sometimes I get a bit frustrated when others don't aim for it, and I have to remind myself that not everybody wants perfection. It's something I am having to work on. I manage to bite my tongue sometimes and others I fail to do so which causes tension in some situations.
I used to hate working in groups at school as I always had an extremely rigid and perfectionistic idea of how I thought something should be done, and inevitably found that others didn't do things in the way I felt was 'right'.
This topic has been really useful in terms of my assessment actually, reminding me of things like this.
Ruthieroo123 said:I always had an extremely rigid and perfectionistic idea of how I thought something should be done, and inevitably found that others didn't do things in the way I felt was 'right'.
I always question why things are done in a way that I see as bureaucratic and not smart/clever/easier in work!!!