Exactly what it says...
I'm so sorry folks. I didn't know what I was doing. I was so drunk.
I went to an AA meeting, which didn't really help, but it stopped me from drinking for 2 hours. I've drunk so much over the last couple of days that I can't even think straight any more. I'm due to go back to work on Tuesday, and I'm freaking out. Can't face the narcissist. Can't face the exhausting responsibility. I need to go to my GP tomorrow, and I promise I will. I know now that I need help. I've drunk two bottles of wine today because of the anxiety, and now I'm still drinking. I can't go on like this. I broke down in tears at the meeting. I want to live. But, at the same time, I hate my life.
Please... don't worry. I'll go to bed now and call my surgery in the morning. If it means going sick from work, it does.
Thank you all for your concerns. I assure you all I'm not attention-seeking. My head is simply in a complete mess.
I'm so grateful to you all. Ellie... thank you xxx
This is truly my lowest point. You people are all I've got. Thank you for being there, from the bottom of my heart. xxx
Tom ... your message is a great relief! You owe me some hair dye and Valium.. x
I have some Valium I can send you - though I might need it myself tomorrow for detox. Bless you. Bless all you folks. I love you all. I didn't mean to create panic. I'm just in such a bad place that I don't know what to do.
What didn't help was I posted this on an 'Aspie Support' site on Facebook - and got called a 'moron' for prefixing a trigger warning. I thought this was a reasonable courtesy, but apparently not. So, I reported the name-caller to an admin - who responded by saying I was being 'over-dramatic'. Honestly...if Aspies can't be decent to one another, then what hope is there?
What absolute dingbats. >> Facebook can be quite the toxic place. What a daft, insensitive (and frankly dangerous) way to treat someone obviously in deep distress.