Exactly what it says...
I'm so sorry folks. I didn't know what I was doing. I was so drunk.
I went to an AA meeting, which didn't really help, but it stopped me from drinking for 2 hours. I've drunk so much over the last couple of days that I can't even think straight any more. I'm due to go back to work on Tuesday, and I'm freaking out. Can't face the narcissist. Can't face the exhausting responsibility. I need to go to my GP tomorrow, and I promise I will. I know now that I need help. I've drunk two bottles of wine today because of the anxiety, and now I'm still drinking. I can't go on like this. I broke down in tears at the meeting. I want to live. But, at the same time, I hate my life.
Please... don't worry. I'll go to bed now and call my surgery in the morning. If it means going sick from work, it does.
Thank you all for your concerns. I assure you all I'm not attention-seeking. My head is simply in a complete mess.
I'm so grateful to you all. Ellie... thank you xxx
Glad you're safe and getting help Tom! Hope you can get a good night's rest and things go well at the GP. We're all wishing you good things and here if you need us. x