Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone. I'm writing this in the hopes that some of you may have been in a similar situation and found a way out. I feel so alone but I feel like there's nothing I can do about it. I don't have any friends anymore, I haven't for years now. My routine for the last 2 1/2 years has been go to work, come home and play the xbox or watch netflix. Go to bed, wake up and do it all again. I brothers that ocassionally play with me, but they have their own lives and do their own things too. The only people I do have are my immediate family but because i'm around them so much I feel like i'm always sick of their company. I can't reqlly go out and do things unless they will aswell, because of my anxiety it is hard to go and do things on my own. Can you see my problem? I'm either on my own or with family but feel like I need to be away from them at thr same time. I attend a social group that hasn't been going too well. And i've tried online dating or looking for events but they all cost. It seems like anything I want to try to be more social costs money. Money that i'm reluctant to spend as I'd probably pay for a dating event and be too anxious to show up. I just don't know what to do anymore
Hi Dean, thanks for taking the time to share this post. It is greatly appreciated more ways than one. I can relate in some areas such as not having friends. Friendships are complicated by no means least. It is so easy to be caught up on your own space because that's what you are use to. But, to some extent things take their tole some of which is out of our control.
You are a gifted person don't lose faith in your ability and what you have to offer. With the strain of work, home life combined it is without a doubt a strenuous time. I can understand watching the Netflix and playing Xbox it is like a distraction to help ease things or forget about anything that can make you feel down. The hurt, pain, guilt it is a mixture of emotions. Especially, when you have tried everything else and all has failed it can push you to your limit whilst at your wits end.
With that, you don't want to seem like your a burden or that you taking up too much time of others. Anxiety is something some people don't fully understand or recognise in detail. Nevertheless, be proud of how far you come and the person you have become. You are making small leaps but making even bigger steps gradually. Try not to take too much upon yourself (easier said than done). There's only so much you can do as a person.
I myself have tried social gatherings. At first, it went well but I did rush in to early on to try and fit in making friends. This is a great example not to rush things. Dating, can be somewhat expensive but you don't necessarily have to put a cost to enjoying yourself. The best things in life are free. Believe in what you possess it is something worth savouring.