Published on 12, July, 2020
Warning.
This will sound like an insane rant from a rambling drunk autistic having a nightmare.
It's see strange how antxieties (spelling ok ?) from the day enter our dreams and turn them into nightmares.
I am a poor cook and often buy ready made meals to microwave.
Yesterday, instead of buying a complete meal for one. I decided to buy and cook the components separately.
In a cheap supermarket I saw cut price, cooked chicken slices and cut price sauce which included veg and spices.
I measured, washed and cooked my own rice. (I hate the overpriced precooked packages of rice which just need microwave).
I read the chicken instructions carefully. I'm terrified of getting food poisoning again. It was pre cooked, cooled and packed in a vacuum. Packaged in UK but sourced from Brazil. Why Brazil? I thought we had enough chickens here in the UK.
My anxiety levels went through the roof. Is the meat safe am I going to get poisoning
Ate the whole meal and during the night my nightmares started.
I was shopping at two shops or was I running a shop ? A rival had cheaper bacon because the had a cheaper source. My shop burnt down or did it explode because of a chemical reaction in the food. Iot food from the new source, is it clean? I don't know? How did the shop explode/burn down? Which town was I in ? What year is it?
Where am I?
I try to eat a varied balance.
Breakfast I prepare at home. A choice of cereals with milk or boiled eggs, or fried bacon & eggs.
Lunch sometimes at home, other times a pub meal if I'm in the city centre. My current favourite is a carvery with choice of meat (chicken, pork, gammon, turkey) with Chips, roast or mashed and several vegetables. All for under £5. Or a £2 box meal from Morrison's, chicken & chips which I eat sitting on a park bench.
Evening dinner, at home raw salad with eggs or pork slices, or a microwave meal.
Sometimes I buy Chinese takeaway or traditional fish and chips.
Breakfast ~ either chocolate porridge made with water or occasionally non dairy milk, with frozen fruit mixed in and nuts, chopped up chocolate and banana on top, with either hemp seeds or whatever other seeds I have.
Or, maybe avocado on toast or a breakfast wrap/burrito with my favourite beans, salad, and a home made oil free dressing.
Or depending on how hungry I am when I have my first meal it could be sautéed vegetables with lots of potatoes, lots of mushrooms and onions and peppers, it could be anything really.
Lunch I’m going to start having a huge fresh salad with beans etc and if I’m still hungry at tea time I’ll my favourite which is a huge bowl of fruit, lots of fresh mango, bananas, raspberries etc, whatever I’ve got really and I’ll have that with some non dairy yoghurt, chocolate granola with extra chocolate chopped up and sometimes I have maple syrup drizzled all over again it. Delicious
I usually try to have a green smoothie each day as well or maybe a delicious chocolate and almond butter smoothie that I like to make with Belgium chocolate protein powder.
I miss takeaways :( We can't get deliveries where I live.