Does anyone like drawing or art on here? As I feel I don't have anyone to talk about it with.
Get to it Endymion. And you don’t have to be good at any of it, just enjoy it. I have decided I’m shaping my life around the things I enjoy, such as art, walking, writing, reading, learning a new language, doing some little writing courses, all the things I enjoy. Because if I get a job first and then think I’ll do any of these things, they won’t happen. I’ll be all exhausted from the job and trying to keep my balance in a world that moves too quick for me. But these things are important aspects of our lives that can’t be overlooked without consequences.
Thank you BlueRay, you're right. I should get back to it again, it would be nice to lose myself like that again for a while. I've not been looking for work for the past three years either, since leaving a particularly stressful job that had taken it's toll on my health, but instead have been seeing this period as much-needed repair time. Instead of attending to what I 'should' be doing I've focused on what I need to be doing for my own health and peace of mind and, really, I wish I'd done it years ago! I'm very much financially poorer, of course, but I think I'm finally feeling mentally healthier than ever before. Like meeting the real me for the first time and realising that I actually like her :)
Hey, I got food last week from what the food bank were giving away! But do you think I feel poor? Not on your life. I know I’m as rich as any man could be. Like you, I’m in this beautiful, sometimes sad, sometimes exhausting, sometimes wonderful, sometimes distressing, sometimes nothing and many more things, but the greatest thing of all, is I’m surrendering to who I am and that’s good enough.
I didn’t say you ‘should’ get back to art Endymion. If I did, I apologise. I’m all for just doing whatever we want right now. I’d say we deserve it, and if anybody were to challeng me on that, they’ll lose.
I feel like I’m washing away the past 50 years of walking in the desert, and sometimes I swear I can feel it leaving me. Even if I wanted to do more than I can right now, I couldn’t, because I really am so exhausted. And that’s ok. I need this rest.
Enjoy your rest. But if you are considering ever working again, be sure to get what you love doing in place first, otherwise we end up with a repeat of what got us here. We’re autistic. We do things differently. And I’m going to find my way, when I’m ready.
No, No! You didn't say 'should', I was talking about the people around me at the time! There was a lot of, perhaps well-meaning, advice around at the time but, like you, I learned to listen to myself instead. I think we're both richer for it.
Lol! And yes, we are definitely richer. Who defined what poor was anyway? And why balance it only on financial wealth? Surely, life is not governed by money! Money comes and goes. When it needs to be here, it is, and when it’s not needed, it’s elsewhere, being needed somewhere else. We don’t have to hord it. Jeez, we’re aspire, we’ve been through far worse ;)