I was diagnosed yesterday. Today I have been thinking about things that have happened to me or that I have done in the new knowledge of my diagnosis. It's very odd. I was surprised to be diagnosed. I asked if I was borderline but they looked horrified and said that I was 100%, no doubt classic autism.
I'd like to say hello to people on here. Hello.
Procrastinator said:Is it possible to rethink yourself at 43?
Is it possible to rethink yourself at 43?
Yes, I think so. I got diagnosed at 56 and am busy working out what to do with my future. A big part of diagnosis is understanding what makes you tick and why we struggled to understand the world and why the world struggles to understand us. I have learnt masses of stuff since diagnosis and now understand things a whole lot better.
Dear piggy77, I'm so sorry I never replied to your question. The notifications weren't turned on. Something must have majorly distracted me - and I forgot all about NAS. Until I rediscovered it a few days ago :-) I wonder how you are two years on. Have you gotten used to your diagnosis? Have things changed?To answer your two-year old question: it was my therapist who suggested it. (The adhd diagnosis 10 years prior was also sprung on me. The job center told me to get tested for "learning disabilities" at the hospital. I was convinced I had dyscalculia - it hadn't occurred to me that I had ADHD (as I thought it was for naughty boys). I recall someone telling me I was in the grey zone between ADHD and ASD (but I didn't think more of it - as I only could think of the outward signs of autism and didn't fully understand the connection to my experience). Then ten years later the therapist had obviously been itching to broach the subject with me - and I felt really surprised. I still struggle a bit with the idea that I come across "wrong". Your last sentence resonates with me. I am still grieving the life I would have wished for myself. And feel a failure for not being able to rise above it all and use my talents and positives in a good way. Having said that - I am working hard on myself - trying to create a good life.
I had to laugh at your getting on wrong trains. It was the kind of think I did when I was working. I would race so hard to catch a train and then get on last moment. Stand there huffing and panting whilst the doors slam shut, only to hear the tannoy announcing some or other exotic destination that most definitely wasn't mine.
Oh that feeling. It is quite funny. Here we get a ticket saying: "lost traveller". I like that. It sort of fits for all of my life. Not just trains. Hope you are well
I'm curious. What would you regard as the most important things you have learnt since diagnosis?
1 - That I'm not 'broken', this is the way I am supposed to be.
2 - That it's okay to be me.
3 - That plenty of other people are like me!
4 - That I don't have M.E / C.F.S. (that diagnosis never did feel right to me) but I do often get social exhaustion and become overloaded, and that's fine because I can now learn how to limit and / or deal with that.
5 - That a diagnosis of HFA is synonymous with above average intelligence (smug smile).
6 - That I've still got a lot to learn about myself and autism.
I think I'll start a new thread on that number four :-) I am curious.