As an adult (30) Asperger sufferer, I still struggle with being withdrawn because of the potential grief that I may recieve.
Any ideas how to help myself with this? Tired of being angry at my anxiety all the time... Medication and therapy has assisted but I'm still stuck trying to survive this horrid condition. I just want to be free to be me.
Having lost my entire PIP claim because I sacrifice myself to work, it appears that my wellbeing is of little concern to the powers that be. The harsh reality that I may as well be regarded as a write off with no chance to appeal because I'm too 'weak' to protect myself from life without a fakehood is a sickening afterthought.
I'm looking for something better than this.
I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling... It will get better.... I'm 27... I really think all the medication that's was and has been prescribed actually made me worst and since i've stopped it. I've been experimenting with diet and have found some big difference to my mood and behavior by eating different foods. For example.... I have a tendency to think a lot at night. If I'm not really tired I will not always sleep. (tough when working)! Melatonin is what helps regulate sleep. I understand it's also a precursor to serotonin (feel good drug). So I've found eating two kiwi's a day & after one or two months it really helps. In terms of anxiety. I have noticed it's worst for me after withdrawing for a period of time. I know it's difficult but sometimes it can be best to keep pushing! I do know how exhausting this can be.... Don't think of yourself as a write off & you could always get help with PIP through a charity. It's still exhausting but it's possible.... Anyway don't overly worry because what's the worst that can happen in a country where capitalist punishment is banned. I mean seriously.... it's not that bad.... I think once we've mastered survival, then we can push for the next thing and the next.... Constantly aiming to reach that point of happiness. Just don't give up and it's going to get better!
I'm struggling at the moment with toxic emotions towards narcissists, (my mother being one). There seems to be this consensus that normal people (NT) love to use hateful people to hurt one another through proxy to make space for themselves. I'm finding it incredibly upsetting that I may not survive dealing with others in public because of it.
At the moment, I feel forced to use a smoke screen to disguise myself from the mirrors of hate that they use to project onto one another. And I'm suffocating with this survival mechanism.
I currently live with my father and working towards independence. But I'm starting to wonder if it's going to be worth it because I feel like damaged goods at this point and may slip into a deep depression again because of the lack of inner security.
I need a cure more than ever so that I may pursue apathy towards this hostility like a normal person, because being stoic is too passive of a defence against these active terrorisers.
I don't want to turn on myself again for not being able to cope. Please advise on what I'm suppose to do to help myself. Self care has gone out the window and with it my confidence that I may not be able to overt a catastrophic meltdown of diminished responsibility.
If you would like to discuss getting assistance with your PIP claim, or advice regarding your anxiety, please contact the NAS helpline on 0808 800 4104 or the supporter care team at email@example.com. http://www.autism.org.uk/get-involved/about-us/contact-us.aspx
I've given up with the PIP process because it's wasted energy now where I can make more money by slowly killing myself with work... I did get help from a support service called balance-CIC but we failed at getting anything.
I've been doing a lot of trolling and getting banned from online support groups out of pure frustration that the needs of those that would do us harm comes first at our expense. That's where my anxieties have been evolving to such a state that I'm now dependent on medication to deal with these problems. My CBT review is due in a months time and making little progress resolving my feelings to gather us victims and aiming our desire for retribution against these so called human beings. I don't feel that my anger is unjust anymore to which I have also been medicated for.
I've also started hurting my narcissistic mother through texting because of what she is, through carefully crafted psychological inversions. I present her with my successful self (like buying a flat) and then I use myself as a weapon (I love your hate, now come at me with your-self). In effect, I get her to hurt herself with the hate she projects because she chose to be what she is. She is her own problem and I remind her of it as a fact of life to be living with herself.
So this is where I am at, at this moment in time. Painting myself as a target now has become a way of life for me as I sought to fight back the endless incursions of other people, feeling that they get to help themselves to me.
Only time is on my side as I wait for her passing but does little to absolve myself from the needless confrontation with others of her kind. They are holes worthy being filled with hurtful things because help only makes them worse... :(