Whenever I get close to people they leave. I cannot hold a strong, close friendship with anyone for more than a couple of years as they always end up leaving me. Unfortunately, my mental health falls apart whenever this happens, my depression and anxiety gets a lot worse as I always feel that there is something wrong with me or that I am a horrible person.
Just wondering if anyone else feel this way?
mother walked out when I was 14
then after a couple of years moved in with her
tgen she kicked me out
2 years homeless
1 x failed marriage
mother hasn't spoken to me for 3 yrs
....nor has my sister
it is tough, isn't it...fear of isolation, fear if trying to bond with others..
unfortunately my self worth/esteem has now whittled yo nothing and leads me at risk if being exploited by others as I crave acceptance xxx
Have you tried talking to them first and just having a chat with them? This worked for me, at least helped me understand, maybe it will for you too. x
Yes unfortunately I have tried but didn't really get anywhere. She just replied with something like I just need space then walked off. Don't get me wrong I understand she needs space but needing space and completely blocking someone out and not talking to them are different things. Also the space thing was also directed towards my other friends who she IS talking to. So I am so confused and hurt and don't really know what to make of it. x
It is really difficult but your ASD will be different from hers...she might have other things going on that meant though she might want to engage she can't. We found here there we have a small pocket per day of emotional engagement (it is a balancing act)....sometimes we have to retreat to recover so we don't damage ourselves....even though it might let down others x
So true Ellie. x
Hi Spotty xx