Whenever I get close to people they leave. I cannot hold a strong, close friendship with anyone for more than a couple of years as they always end up leaving me. Unfortunately, my mental health falls apart whenever this happens, my depression and anxiety gets a lot worse as I always feel that there is something wrong with me or that I am a horrible person.
Just wondering if anyone else feel this way?
mother walked out when I was 14
then after a couple of years moved in with her
tgen she kicked me out
2 years homeless
1 x failed marriage
mother hasn't spoken to me for 3 yrs
....nor has my sister
it is tough, isn't it...fear of isolation, fear if trying to bond with others..
unfortunately my self worth/esteem has now whittled yo nothing and leads me at risk if being exploited by others as I crave acceptance xxx
Sorry to hear that and yes its so hard. A part of me wants to be on my own but a huge part of me craves acceptance, I just hate the thought of people not liking me for any reason. Unfortunately my self esteem is rock bottom too which means I get easily depressed and upset. Also doesn't help that I care way too much about what people think of me and I am so sensitive as well as being very oversensitive to my emotions. It really is horrible isn't it... the desire to just be accepted by the people you love and anyone generally, just to feel slightly less alien. xxx
I also fear getting really close to people now because every time I do I end up getting hurt. Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier on my own, separated from the rest of the world, as then no-one could hurt you.
Holly as a 55 year old male I to have exactly the same as you and Ellie,have been let down a few times,been used and taken advantage of.
I want nothing more in life than someone who understands me,the real me.I am extremely fortunate to have a very patient wife,I am not easy to live with but she manages somehow.poor girl.
I gave up looking for a true best mate long ago,Maybe my expectations were to high?
However it may sound small but meeting other folks on here that really know what I am has been the best thing ever, honestly we have up days and down days,yes we can be sensitive and fragile.But we support each other through the ups and downs.
I have a spare hug if you would like? () that's an autistic hug btw,hug,
Thanks Lonewarrior and its great because everyone here understands and are really supportive. Everyone supports each other which is really nice. () xx
If you want to meet nice females then introduce yourself in the current thread with the non seriouse title that has heffalumps and skinny beans in it,Warning it may contain nuts!(joke) .
Think I might do that. Thanks again xx
What does it mean if one of your friends is talking to your other friends but completely ignoring you?
Have you tried talking to them first and just having a chat with them? This worked for me, at least helped me understand, maybe it will for you too. x
Yes unfortunately I have tried but didn't really get anywhere. She just replied with something like I just need space then walked off. Don't get me wrong I understand she needs space but needing space and completely blocking someone out and not talking to them are different things. Also the space thing was also directed towards my other friends who she IS talking to. So I am so confused and hurt and don't really know what to make of it. x
It is really difficult but your ASD will be different from hers...she might have other things going on that meant though she might want to engage she can't. We found here there we have a small pocket per day of emotional engagement (it is a balancing act)....sometimes we have to retreat to recover so we don't damage ourselves....even though it might let down others x
So true Ellie. x
Hi Spotty xx