Whenever I get close to people they leave. I cannot hold a strong, close friendship with anyone for more than a couple of years as they always end up leaving me. Unfortunately, my mental health falls apart whenever this happens, my depression and anxiety gets a lot worse as I always feel that there is something wrong with me or that I am a horrible person.
Just wondering if anyone else feel this way?
mother walked out when I was 14
then after a couple of years moved in with her
tgen she kicked me out
2 years homeless
1 x failed marriage
mother hasn't spoken to me for 3 yrs
....nor has my sister
it is tough, isn't it...fear of isolation, fear if trying to bond with others..
unfortunately my self worth/esteem has now whittled yo nothing and leads me at risk if being exploited by others as I crave acceptance xxx
Holly as a 55 year old male I to have exactly the same as you and Ellie,have been let down a few times,been used and taken advantage of.
I want nothing more in life than someone who understands me,the real me.I am extremely fortunate to have a very patient wife,I am not easy to live with but she manages somehow.poor girl.
I gave up looking for a true best mate long ago,Maybe my expectations were to high?
However it may sound small but meeting other folks on here that really know what I am has been the best thing ever, honestly we have up days and down days,yes we can be sensitive and fragile.But we support each other through the ups and downs.
I have a spare hug if you would like? () that's an autistic hug btw,hug,
Thanks Lonewarrior and its great because everyone here understands and are really supportive. Everyone supports each other which is really nice. () xx
If you want to meet nice females then introduce yourself in the current thread with the non seriouse title that has heffalumps and skinny beans in it,Warning it may contain nuts!(joke) .
Think I might do that. Thanks again xx
What does it mean if one of your friends is talking to your other friends but completely ignoring you?
difficukt to say....are you Ble to give more detail? X
Well I'm not really sure what is going on tbh. I have confronted her about it and she says she just needs 'space' but was referring not just to me I think, but then she isn't talking to me at all. Also on top of that she also has ASD and she knows how I feel but hasn't done anything about it and continues to completely block me out.
and also in the last few hours I am now having problems with another friend. it is never ending and now my depression has got a whole lot worse again. Tbh I really don't know how much longer I can put up with it, its horrible cos I felt it was finally starting to improve and then all this happens and I get knocked back again.
One of the things that you find here also is that some of us have down days and our stuck in a hole day...usually when down, someone else here is on an up?.... the crunch us when both parties are on a down xxxx
Have you tried talking to them first and just having a chat with them? This worked for me, at least helped me understand, maybe it will for you too. x