I really wish that I could hibernate. This time of year has nothing to commend itself to me. I hate the dark, cold, grey days of winter. Most of the family I have lost died in winter. The worst bullying I experienced was in the run up to christmas and at christmas work social events. Before I retired, I used to look forward to some time off work and to overindulging in food and drink. I am now more health concious, and always used to hate the mixture of hangovers and that dreadful moment of getting on the scales in January to see what damage I had done.
I think I come from an autistic family. The more I read, the more asd traits I remember in my parents. They wouldn't take part in Christmas when they became older. They had a bare minimum of contact with the outside world, once they retired. I am not as unsociable as they are, but christmas has too much socialising and even the nicest of pubs is noisy and overcrowded.
January had a strange effect, in that I would become hyperactive, crash diet, and decide I could survive by will power alone. I would focus entirely on my goals until the horrible moment of realisation came, that I was trampling over everyones feelings and great waves of resentment were hitting me from everyone I knew. I would then crawl away and hide until the worst was past. By the end of February, life would return to normal and I could look forward to spring.
Is there anything nice about this time of year?
i don't even have a job. I failed all the benefit assessments under the previous benefits company because i could stand/speak. But they refused to take in to consideration developmental dissorders/anxiety/depression problems. so i don't even have any money and it worries me silly! my dad has to keep me alive and he is retired. Because i don't cope with work in the way neuro typical people do, i can't go on job seekers. I have tried to set up my own animal bussiness-though with the recession and people thinking they are hard done by, bussiness is extreemly slow/ non existant and has been since i set up a few years ago. I suffer from chronic fatigue, due to severe stress and worry and people. but i do the best i can. At christmas i mannaged to scrape presents together from bargain basement stores and anything i find on offer during the year
That sucks. I've been long-term unemployed: it's my opinion that job seekers allowance is wages for being a government scapegoat. They should really pay the minimum wage. And it seems like the unemployed isn't enough for the current government: they've got to treat disabled people as scroungers too!
I'm struggling in my current job. Even though so far I've not managed to persuade the medical proffesion that I need an asd assesment, there's related problems that have lost me previous jobs and I'm barely holding on to this one. Thanks to money off my parents I've recently qualified as a pet behaviorist (on a proper government regulated level 5 course). Just hope I can keep it together enough to make a go of that. Launching in the new year! It's not just you finds animal bussineses can be slow and poorly paid. I'd be stuck if it wasn't for my parents.
Had a surprise today. In the co-op and they started playing Rudolf the Red Nosed ***** Reindeer. But it turns out the co-op plays a better version! Found the lyrics online:
Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer Had a very shiny nose And if you ever saw it You would even say it glows All of the other reindeer Used to laugh and call him names They never let poor Rudolph Join in any reindeer games Then one foggy Christmas eve Santa came to say: "Rudolph with your nose so bright Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?" Then how the reindeer loved him As they shouted out with glee (yippee) "Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer You'll go down in history." Well Rudolph he didn't go for that He said "I see through your silly games" How could you look me in the face When only yesterday you called me names? Well all of the other reindeers man, Well they sure did feel ashamed, "Rudolph you know we're sorry, We're truly gonna try to change"
(By Jack Johnson apparently)
Is Santa Silly?
I hate Christmas too! It reminds me of family dos and I do not have sociable, nice relatives ... It is very funny how my relatives, and even my in-laws, never talk about interesting, fundamental topics - even though the Christmas party goes on for hours and hours! I told my sister-in-law about my autism and now I wonder if she even told her two sons. Nobody mentions it ever again.
If I start talking about it again, I am afraid they'll think I just need attention (and maybe I do...).
I like Christmas.
I do not like that everything closes down on Christmas.
If you dislike the Christmas period so much, why not go on holiday or something, give yourself a Christmas gift and use that time to have some lovely alone time. I find this is a great time of year to indulge in my special interests as the rest of the family are busily engaged in enjoying the Christmas period in a more traditional way so I won’t be missed too much. I enjoy meeting up with people who like me, prefer to have deep and meaningful discussions about life etc and my family aren’t into that at all, so it doesn’t serve anyone by me being at their celebrations.
Also, why do you think it’s a bad thing to need attention?
The family hates it when any member misses Christmas and for years I let their wish be more important than mine. Now I am recovering from burn-out, Graves disease, ... (because of that!), so I do not feel like going on holidays and doing "fun" things, they are too exhausting.
Needing attention is something I really hate in other people. I find it irritating, childish and very tiring and I do not want to be any of these!!
I find it next to impossible to give people presents. I will try and get other people to give presents to them, it just to much.