Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello,
I've just gone past my 26 or 27th Birthday. When I was a child I was diagnosed with Dyslexia, when I was around 20 my parents were told that I may have Aspergers. I was never given an assessment, I don't even know how to get one.
My mother told me that I was popular at school, primary school. Always happy but odd. I like that. When I moved into high school it started to become more noticeable.
I can't make eye contact, I've never really been able to.
I hate loud noises that I can't control,
I hate being around too many people or people I don't know
It gives me a panic attack when I've got to talk to people I don't know
I have a tendency to say harsh things or be very rude without meaning too
I become obsessed about a certain thing for a few weeks and then move onto something else
You get the point, all of these things I guess made the "Specialists" I don't know who it was who told my parents, think I'm Autistic.
Moving into adult life it's been pretty difficult. I'd rather hide then face the world. I'm confused and frustrated most of the time, many people I meet see me as some awkward weirdo.
Should I bother trying to get an assessment done? Would there be a point? How would that improve my life in any way? It's not going make it go away.
But to the people who have had it done, does it make things seem more clear? Is it worth the hassle and having to meet new people and go to new places?
Thank you
This question has been on my mind too.
It may help solve a persistent mystery, I was diagnosed with a mystery illness as a child and would still be curious to know if this was autism - it probably was but I don't want to feel stigmatised.
I don't live in the UK either and this is not really a tolerant country for these things, though recently I signed something at the school to the effect that no I am not handicapped in any way, do not deserving of any benefits.
And I am not, unless you count experiencing difficulty in filling in forms for bureaucrsts as a disability.
These matters but be the questions you may have for yourself too though by the sound of it, you would need to be pretty tough and persistent to get a diagnosis in the UK right now