Hey everyone - I've been pretty inactive on the forums as I emigrated to Germany four years ago and have been struggling to find my feet here, but I secured a diagnosis, which was really a huge relief!
Anyway, I had the opportunity to give a TEDx talk and I would love to hear what you think about it... did I actually represent the Aspie community accurately? I should have asked beforehand, but honestly didn't think about how far this video would go afterwards - I'd hate to think that I have made anyone else's life more difficult by telling my own story!
I hope you enjoy the talk either way, and I've had some feedback from people saying that they could relate to this and honestly, that made ME feel more like I'm not alone! Emigrating has been tough - I am extremely socially isolated but dealing with that is a challenge. Either way, it was nice to reach out into the ether in an unconventional way and experience understanding. I hope you all find the same!!
Hello saraip. I just watched the video. I think you were spot on. I think You represented us very well in an interesting, engaging, humorous and sensitive way I equate with quite a lot of what you said. Thank you very much for sharing. I’ve never really done the dating thing more just fallen into relationships of sorts. I still live by myself and continue to hope that one day things will work out alright . Plus I think what you said related to other types of relationships, friendships and relatives.
Hello Saraip I am a Male aged 55, I watched your talk and very much understand pretty much all you have said, I also even as a male can associate with what it is like for you. There are variations in intensity on specifics but much the same as I have experienced. I can only imagine it is because each of us go through life with varied outside influences, these have a profound effect on us as we grow older.. I am sure I have been lucky in a way and unlucky in another, I have learnt to cope, I am able to adapt, not stand out in a crowd, it has been a constant battle to just exhist. It never felt right, I was indeed researching everything and finding strategies to overcome each hurdle as I came upon it. I researched And analysed very well,
The big problem is that having coped and adjusted for so many years I have lost who I am,or who I was.
Very sad and traumatic once I found out about autism and Aspergers specifically. I suddenly saw that although my task to fit in was going very well it wasn’t ever what I wanted. It was what I thought people just did.
I really liked you saying that to communicate well it would be better on a digital device sat next to somebody. I very much agree with that statement, I get to edit and think before typing, as I have writing this, I read it back through and misspellings would be like me mumbling my words, I can pour out my true feelings without giving the right facial expression,I can judge the reply by use of characters,a face in front of me verbalising would be impossible to understand.
Thank you for posting this, it has been good to hear your journey, and from my point of view as a male it does cover a lot of what being Aspergers or ASD is like.
one last thing,,,could I be so bold as to ask if I could maybe give you a little hug to show my appreciation? I only really hug virtually, in real life I cannot judge if it will be accepted or indeed if the intensity is correct depending on the situation.
we use () to signify a hug here! I would only wrap one arm around your shoulder and only for a very brief moment.
What a fantastic talk Sarai, thanks for sharing! Lots of what you say sounds rather familiar, especially the "don't worry, you will be fine" thing. Strange isn't it, we may manage to identify problems quite accurately but nobody believes us, then it does happen exactly like we feared, and we get told this is all our fault, we probably didn't want it to go any better...
You talk is amazing....and I identified with it in many ways. The idea of treating aspects of life like a university degree....if I try hard enough and read enough about the subject I can make this work and understand things a little better!!!
Unfortunately, as you rightly point out this can help to a certain extent but it is also a great help if other parties also read the ASD/Aspie hand-out and can understand us a little better.
I am also a programmer (I teach computer science) and a gamer (finished my Masters last year) and I laughed out loud about the appeal of your "sexy syntax"....see...we can even master other languages but in life we often get "logic errors" (sorry other forum members, if that is too geeky a response!)...so need to take time to examine the "code" of life and re-interpret and re-compile.... tried this....solved one error...generated another 100!... it certainly is a challenge intellectually, emotionally and spiritually.
Your openness about the fragility of forming relationships also hit a nerve (emotional need and desire are again a mass of variables)...the fact that we can be prone to unhealthy relationships...to conform to others wants and needs to "belong", be "accepted", to "fit in" and this can easily lead to a path of being manipulated or coerced . Ticked that box (ticking it now in my current relationship) ...which is a mix of coercion and also frustrated care and protection on his part. He also refuses to read the ASD/Aspie hand-out so my frustration that he is missing out on understanding and enjoying the specialness of our diagnosis.
Anyhow, this is me...and this is "what I think!"
Good luck out there
42 and three quarters.....jumping life's syntactic hoops!
I have to quickly jump in and say that I loved these responses so much that I would like to reply individually - I feel so relieved that what I said was relatable and won't cause more problems to people who have the same struggles as me! :) You're all simply amazing for sharing as much as you have here and I have some stuff to take care off first, but am definitely coming back to this.
Thanks for taking the time to watch and respond - much appreciated :) <3