An informal thread for all misfired and miswired women on the spectrum...,(and guests). A new thread as we can chat away but are not so good tidying up after ourselves....too busy being awesome..,,
This is a new iteration of many long and warm and welcoming contributions. This is a happy and supportive place x
Hi everybody. I’m feeling a bit flat and worn out today but after reading all these posts, they’re so supportive and it’s so good to find others like me, that I wanted to say hello before I went to bed. I was diagnosed at the end of last month, aged 50. I have definitely become more autistic since realising I was autistic, last May. Or rather, as some of you have said, I am dropping more and more of the mask and becoming more and more of who I am. Part of this is by choice and partly, I have no choice. I am completely worn out by it all, I’m done with the mask, whether I want to be or not, but I do want to be! Getting the diagnosis was important to me, but I wasn’t expecting such a roller coaster of emotions etc since I got the diagnosis. I’m super passionate though, about speaking up for us all. I have no choice in telling people I’m autistic, it just comes out, but I seriously want to get involved some how, in spreading awareness and making things easier for the younger ones, as well as ourselves. For now, I’m just so grateful I’ve found others like me and I’m getting all the help I can to sort my life out after a serious burn out and learning that it will happen, but I have to take my time. Thanks for all your comments, they really help.
Yes Blueray that sounds very similar to me. I’ve only been diagnosed a year ago at 55yrs and I got burnt out a few times along the way without ever really knowing why. It is good to be amongst people who understand
Loving you work BlueRay....it needs super power strength to drag the self up the mountain....and we are all braced and mindful of its peak... keep going, and keep being you..rattle your chains and roar!
Hehe thanks Ellie, this is the kind of suppprt I need to help me to keep clawing my way up the mountain. And I love that, rattle your chains and roar! You’re the best :-D
I'll spring you some crampons and an ice axe.
Don’t forget the Kendal mint cake...., Misfit61 usually has some chocolate muffins for the trip!
just don’t forget that at the peak is the drop...,and we all know that one!!! Vertigo after all is not a fear of heights....but a fear of falling...
Great support here. Yeah, I think I’ve learned my lesson with hitting the peak, I’m going for a much smaller mountain this time, it’s easier all round and to be fair, I’m pretty satisfied with the simple things in life, I just need to keep away from people! Lol! Joking/not joking! ;) I’m slowly learning to take a step by step approach while gathering up supplies/support along the way.
Chocolate muffins always help. In fact, chocolate, full stop, always helps! :-)
BlueRay said:I just need to keep away from people! Lol! Joking/not joking!
So true BluRay..... I am drawn always to reaching out to connect with people but have to be mindful that I don’t make a mess of it or handle it the wrong way! .....no one likes a squished Aspie!
Smaller mountains are good, safer, just about manageable but I would love to beat th NT folk and run up a huge mountain and beat them when they weren’t looking!
Haha I like that and despite our challenges, I think we’re here to show the NT folk a thing or two, including how to climb mountains :-) I love the sound of music and even though I’m taking my mountains in smaller chunks, I will keep going until all my needs are met in a way that I desire and then people will look and say, oh, she climbed that giant mountain, and I didn’t even notice, and then they’ll want to know how I did it, but by that point, they’ll have to pay me if they want to know ;-)
That was not a mountain....but with your chocolate reference earlier....you are just navigating a bar of toblerone! - joke!
So, you have a bucket list of needs......sounds like you've given yourself one hell of a challenge. What are the success criteria? All or nothing...some would be good? Are some more important needs to satisfy for others?
curious......tell me to *** off if I am prying.
My main need is a "space to be" - someone where I can be at peace with myself, a safe space where can I drop my mask and feel ok to do so!
I would love to share what I’ve got planned Elie, I’ve never had a ‘goal’ or a plan before, and it’s taken me years, to come to this plan, which makes me laugh because as I look back, it’s all I ever wanted to do right from being a kid. I guess I’m a bit slow to figure things out ;-)
I’m about to take the dog for a walk (dog sitting for my son) and I’m going out tonight - to get it over with (another story), so as soon as I can, in the next few days, I’ll reply. Right now my stomachs calling me, so a bite to eat then dog duties!
Have a lovely day