An informal thread for all misfired and miswired women on the spectrum...,(and guests). A new thread as we can chat away but are not so good tidying up after ourselves....too busy being awesome..,,
This is a new iteration of many long and warm and welcoming contributions. This is a happy and supportive place x
Hi everybody. I’m feeling a bit flat and worn out today but after reading all these posts, they’re so supportive and it’s so good to find others like me, that I wanted to say hello before I went to bed. I was diagnosed at the end of last month, aged 50. I have definitely become more autistic since realising I was autistic, last May. Or rather, as some of you have said, I am dropping more and more of the mask and becoming more and more of who I am. Part of this is by choice and partly, I have no choice. I am completely worn out by it all, I’m done with the mask, whether I want to be or not, but I do want to be! Getting the diagnosis was important to me, but I wasn’t expecting such a roller coaster of emotions etc since I got the diagnosis. I’m super passionate though, about speaking up for us all. I have no choice in telling people I’m autistic, it just comes out, but I seriously want to get involved some how, in spreading awareness and making things easier for the younger ones, as well as ourselves. For now, I’m just so grateful I’ve found others like me and I’m getting all the help I can to sort my life out after a serious burn out and learning that it will happen, but I have to take my time. Thanks for all your comments, they really help.
Yes Blueray that sounds very similar to me. I’ve only been diagnosed a year ago at 55yrs and I got burnt out a few times along the way without ever really knowing why. It is good to be amongst people who understand
Thank you ladies and YES, I love that Ellie, ‘let it sing’ :-D I was feeling pressured by the job centre and my autistic friend, said, let them have it, melt down at the job centre and start kicking and screaming and show them what’s really going on inside! Lol!
Yeah, I’ve had several burnouts throughout my life Misfit. The first time I shut down and stopped functioning, I was 18 months old and they put me in an isolation room at the hospital for 3 weeks, drip fed me then let me out. The doctors visits and therapists etc continued throughout my life and trying to fit in, because I didn’t know better, finally got the better of me and now I couldn’t do it, even if I wanted to. It’s really good to be amongst people who understand, it’s so valuable. And although I’m pretty worn out just now and I’ve been so frustrated and upset with my challenges, I do love being me, an aspie girl, and now my back’s against the wall, I have come out fighting and I will honour and defend our right to be who we are in this f****d up neurotypical world. I don’t ‘blame’ anyone for not understanding what life is like for us but I can’t allow myself to be pushed into being anything other than me anymore ~ the next 50 + years are mine! Yes, I intend to live well into my 100’s and instead of the world forcing me to be like them, I’m going to force them to allow me to be me and hopefully, along the way, we learn from each other and make this world a better place for all of us. I think us autistics are doing that anyway, by our very existence on this planet. So so happy I finally found my tribe, and I finally understand what that even means! lol!
Loving you work BlueRay....it needs super power strength to drag the self up the mountain....and we are all braced and mindful of its peak... keep going, and keep being you..rattle your chains and roar!
Hehe thanks Ellie, this is the kind of suppprt I need to help me to keep clawing my way up the mountain. And I love that, rattle your chains and roar! You’re the best :-D
I'll spring you some crampons and an ice axe.
Don’t forget the Kendal mint cake...., Misfit61 usually has some chocolate muffins for the trip!
just don’t forget that at the peak is the drop...,and we all know that one!!! Vertigo after all is not a fear of heights....but a fear of falling...
Great support here. Yeah, I think I’ve learned my lesson with hitting the peak, I’m going for a much smaller mountain this time, it’s easier all round and to be fair, I’m pretty satisfied with the simple things in life, I just need to keep away from people! Lol! Joking/not joking! ;) I’m slowly learning to take a step by step approach while gathering up supplies/support along the way.
Chocolate muffins always help. In fact, chocolate, full stop, always helps! :-)
BlueRay said:I just need to keep away from people! Lol! Joking/not joking!
So true BluRay..... I am drawn always to reaching out to connect with people but have to be mindful that I don’t make a mess of it or handle it the wrong way! .....no one likes a squished Aspie!
Smaller mountains are good, safer, just about manageable but I would love to beat th NT folk and run up a huge mountain and beat them when they weren’t looking!