"Different not less" - to be honest, I disagree
I'm so sorry to be potentially controversial and I really don't want to cause any upset, but I feel this is a place where we should be able to express our opinions as autistic people and I totally disagree with the "different not less" thing.
As an Aspie, I believe I am less. I believe I would be a better, more effective person if I was neurotypical. I believe I would be a better daughter and a proper big sister, who could give her younger sisters advice on boys, friends etc. I believe I wouldn't have spent most of my life being mocked and shamed. People patronise me and make me feel like a freak. I can't hold down a job or go to university due to mental health issues I wouldn't have if I wasn't on the spectrum. I'm not a proper woman as Asperger's is not a feminine thing; or at least, I don't feel I present enough like a girl. I'm told every day that I have to have difficulties with my sensory processing, with my wanting relationships etc, and they are wrong but I feel I have to go along with what they're saying because I'm the one with the diagnosis. I have I could go on, but I'm just exhausted today.
I just don't understand this "autism can be a gift" thing. If it was a "gift" then why would it be a medical diagnosis? Why would it be something that parents dread to the point that, even though that whole thing about the MMR vaccine has been disproved, they still don't want to risk their child having the vaccination unless it makes them autistic?
Sitting here close to tears. I just can't bear this pain - I find myself overwhelmed and crying in public places. I despise my autism.